The world we live in...

What is happening in our world?

What happened to love and honesty and hope? I know, all of those words are huge and have a massive meaning behind them.

Let's be honest, if we all loved a little more, were a little more honest with people in our lives and had a lot more hope for our lives then we could live a much more peaceful existence.

I am not one to follow the politics of the world but, when I have turned on the news and seen some of the comments from potential future leaders in other countries, such as the USA - it frightens me. It frightens me big time. Are we seriously living in a world that is at the point of potentially electing someone into office who has such a hatred towards certain types of people? Are we at the point of going back in history and re-living Rosa Parks story but, in a different form.

How did we end up here? How did we end up in a world of hate? Those of us who have children are attempting to teach them love, honesty and give them the hope they need for the future. One day though, they are going to be set loose into this world full of anger, frustration and sadness.

Friendship

I've never been one to have a large social group. Never one to stand out in a crowd and have tons of friends. I was always of the mindset that it is better to have a couple close friends rather than a large group of acquaintances. Perhaps I have been wrong all along...

I have been open and honest with the friends that I had close with about my recent struggles with depression and what was happening in my life. Then, slowly but surely over the last 6-8 weeks, those friends have started to call and text less and less. 

Depression and anxiety are two things that I don't think I fully understood before. Now, as I am on this journey of self re-discovery, I am understanding it more and more each and every day. Someone who is suffering usually has to suffer in silence because people don't understand what it is like. They don't understand why someone feels that way and they are scared to be a part of it. 

Never did I ever think that being "open and honest" with "friends" would leave me feeling more alone than ever in the world. 

I have two options though, embrace who I am and start to live again as I work ethrough this journey or sink farther into depression because of them. 

I'll tell you this much-- they are not going to win.